You Found Me

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, Where you been?
He said, Ask anything.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who’s ever known
Who I am
Who I’m not, and who I want to be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

Early morning
The city breaks
I’ve been calling
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve
Taking all I want

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you, where were you?

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

Why’d you have to wait
To find me, to find me?

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Today, I've come to the realization that I am thoroughly fucked because I am as much of an idealist as I am a realist.

Perfect Situation

What's the deal with my brain?
Why am I so obviously insane?
In a perfect situation
I let love down the drain.
There's the pitch, slow and straight.
All I have to do is swing
and I'm a hero, but I'm a zero.

Hungry nights, once again
Now it's getting unbelievable.
'Cause I could not have it better,
But I just can't get no play
From the girls, all around
As they search the night for someone to hold onto.
And I just pass through...

Singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.
Singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.

Get your hands off the girl,
Can't you see that she belongs to me?
And I don't appreciate this excess company.
Though I can't satisfy all the needs she has
And so she starts to wander...
Can you blame her?

Singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.
Singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.

Tell me there's a logic out there.
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come.
Tell me there's some hope for me.
I don't wanna be lonely
For the rest of my days on the earth.
Oh...

Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.
Singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.
Singing...
Ooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

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So much crap to do. I get side-tracked way too easily. Way too easily. I was supposed to get at least half my paper done today for my E-business class but didn't get a chance amongst the psychitude of May. Now, I blog instead. Haha. Oh man. Anyways, May is going to be kick-ass I say. I'm determined. April 29 will be the Audition in Buffalo, NY. A day to chill, then Bamboozle 2009. Crazy-ass bands attending. Crazy-ass times to be had.

Lately, I can't help but hate myself for letting go. I hate the fact that I say one thing, and things turn out completely opposite. Right now, I'm not supposed to be where I am, what I am. At all. Fuck.

Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

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I want all the cute boys to be gathered together and put on an island far, far away. Please get out of my life. Well, just one in particular.

I'm here in my room. In the dark. With my hood propped up. Blogging...
Lately, I've been feeling loner-ish. Loser-ish too. I'm with people all the time. No one seems to see me. No one hears me. I'm never enough. Once someone gets close, they don't like what they get. Selfish, immature, and cold. Get away while you can.

Summerboy

1, 2, 3

Nowhere
Yeah we're going nowhere fast
Maybe this time, ill be yours you'll be mine
C-c-c-crazy, get your ass in my bed
Baby you'll be, just my summer boyfriend
Summer boy

Lets get lost you can take me home
Somewhere nice we can be alone
Bikini tops, coming o-o-off
Don't be sad when the sun goes down
You'll wake up and im not around
Ive got to go oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
We'll still have the summer after all

Sometimes, you might start a fight
But Im happy pretending we're alright (alright)
Sun glasses, cover up my green eyes
My martini glistens, yeah
While checking out other guys
Summer boy

Lets get lost you can take me home
Somewhere nice we can be alone
Bikini tops, coming o-o-off
Don't be sad when the sun goes down
You'll wake up and Im not around
Ive got to go oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
We'll still have the summer after all

Hey there summer boy
Lets go for a drive
Take me for a ride
Never gonna close our eyes

Hey there summer boy
Im a busy girl
Don't got too much time
Hurry up before I change my mind

Hey there summer boy
Im taking off my heels
Lets go for a run
Have a little summer fun
Have a little summer fun
Summer boy

Lets get lost you can take me home
Somewhere nice we can be alone
Bikini tops, popping o-o-off
Don't be sad when the sun goes down
You'll wake up and Im not around
You've got to go oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
We'll still have the summer after

Lets get lost you can take me home
Somewhere nice we can be alone
You'll be my summer-summer boy

Don't be sad when the sun goes down
You'll wake up and Im not around
You'll be my summer-summer boy

And we'll still have the summer after all

I've got my-
Yes I've got my
I've got my summer-summer boy

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Currents
Mood: lethargic
I feel like I'm working a full-time job, without the pay. I wake up at about 6 or 7am, and get ready for the day. I leave at about 8 - 9ish, get to school, go to class, work on things for RCG, meet my groups, and get home at about 9 - 10ish. This was my day for the past 3 days. And it's starting to take its toll. Tomorrow, will be the first time I'd be working after almost 2 weeks. That's some money for me. I just woke up not too long ago, at around 9pm. Just in time for Grey's. I'm slowly getting tired...

Needs: money, fame, and fortune (i kid, i kid)
I did a bit of account work today as to the balance in my bank account. It's pretty grim. I am in need of $1328.47. It's a lot to worry about, but I am determined to get it.

Wants: summer, bamboozle, funtimes,
I've been in an anti-socialness since school started. I am either A) At school, B) At home, or C) At work. That is my social circle. Along with that, I'm in a vicious, vicious circle of assessments, projects, and final exams. I can't wait til summer hits. Freedom. I think I might take a summer course, but it shouldn't affect my life much. 6 hours a week, that's nothing. I can't wait til the sunshine hits, the shorts and tees I can wear, and the sound of sweet, sweet music. Oh with that said, I want to be 25 pounds lighter. I hope this summer is it... Either way, funtimes and good friends make up for it every time.

Social Life: See above.
I have no social life. Well, hardly. The people at school are really cool though. So I'm glad I have good people surrounding me when the really important ones aren't there.

Love Life: Non-existent
So per usge, non-existent. Maybe a summerboy this year.. (Yes, I'm joking...). I am meeting a lot of great people right now, so I can't really say I'm that bored.

Thoughts:
Finish this semester, then enter the funtimes. I need to get drunk really soon btw.