Check Yes Juliet

Check yes Juliet
Are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won't go until you come outside.

Check yes Juliet
Kill the limbo
I'll keep tossing rocks at your window
There's no turning back for us tonight.

Lace up your shoes
Eh Oh Eh Ohhh
Here's how we do:

Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back.
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance.
Don't sell your heart.
Don't say we're not meant to be.
Run, baby, run.
Forever will be
You and me.

Check yes Juliet
I'll be waiting
Wishing, wanting
Yours for the taking.
Just sneak out
And don't tell a soul goodbye.
Check yes Juliet
Here's the countdown
3... 2... 1... now fall in my arms now
They can change the locks
Don't let them change your mind

Lace up your shoes
Eh Oh Eh Ohhh
Here's how we do

Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me

We're flying through the night
We're flying through the night
Way up high,
The view from here is getting better with
You by my side

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be...

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me
You and me
You and me

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Let me ask you a question, what is your limit? What would someone have to do to make you walk out of their lives?

Catastrophe

Wake up your a drama queen,
Carry on like your supposed to be
Get away, hurry up, come on, get away

How long have you been in your bedroom?
It's been three days straight with your sheets and your pillow
The clock on the walls a reminder,
of my father, and all his integrity

I know that I shouldn't let it get to me
But it does and who am I kidding?
A dead end job and a lack of family
This town really gets to me

Wake up you're a drama queen
Carry on like your supposed to be
Get away, hurry up, come on
Get away, gotta get up and go
Break out from the drama scene
Stick around, it'll bury me
Get away, hurry up, come on
This is becoming a catastrophe

I made up my mind,
Took time to think of everything I oughta do
It may be hard but I'm trying hard to comprehend,
Where I quit and where I should begin

I know that I shouldn't let it get to me
But it does and who am I kidding?
A dead end job and a lack of family
This town really gets to me

Wake up you're a drama queen
Carry on like your supposed to be
Get away, hurry up, come on
Get away, gotta get up and go
Break out from the drama scene
Stick around, it'll bury me
Get away, hurry up, come on
This is becoming a catastrophe
This is becoming a catastrophe

You're a fake, a product of the world
You're an average mistake, so commonly made
I made up my mind, (You're a fake)
Took time to think of everything I oughta do
(a product of the world)
It may be hard but I'll try to comprehend (an average mistake)
It may be hard (so commonly made)

I know that I shouldn't let it get to me
But it does and who am I kidding?
Wake up your a drama queen
Carry on like your supposed to be
Get away, hurry up, come on
Get away, gotta get up and go
Break out from the drama scene
Stick around, it'll bury me
Get away, hurry up, come on
This is becoming a catastrophe

You're a fake, a product of the world
(this is becoming a catastrophe)
You're an average mistake,
(this is becoming a catastrophe)
So commonly made.

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Left alone, your voice once gave me the comfort to continue.
Once again, your lies still give me the heartache to continue.

Karma Police

Karma police, arrest this man
He talks in maths
He buzzes like a fridge
He's like a detuned radio

Karma police, arrest this girl
Her Hitler hairdo is
Making me feel ill
And we have crashed her party

This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us

Karma Police
I've given all I can
It's not enough
I've given all I can
But we're still on the payroll

This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us

And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
Phew, for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

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Something amazing is going to hit me. Right now, it's just building momentum.
=)

One Ray Of Sunlight

Goodness sometimes things get bad
But I swear
I'm doing all I can
So try all you want to
I'm gonna try too

If I get one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy again
I'll try for one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy and then...

Things don't go as I planned
But I swear I'm doing all I can
So try all you want to
I'm gonna try too

If I get one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy again
I'll try for one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
And I guess if this isn't the end
Maybe we can be happy again

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Happy Birthday to my dear Veronica!

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As each year goes by, we hope to all be older and wiser. To learn from mistakes only to make new mistakes. We try so hard to be better than we were the year before, and not lose ourselves in the process. As we embark on the new and fresh year, as our age goes one digit higher, all we can do is live the best way we can. The way we know how to. To remember the good things, create new memories, and laugh at our mistakes.

Where Were You?

Home for the weekend,
Looking for a good time;
Of all the numbers you end up calling mine.
Ready or not , I think I’ll give this a shot.
I should know better than to
Give her what she wants.
I picked her up and she was three-forths gone.
She passed out before we even got to talk.
All I want to know is:

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

Back to where we left off, baby.
“How you been and what’s been new with you lately?”
Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround.
You build me up just to let me down.
Down!

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround,
Just forget it, just forget it.

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My Head: Hurting
My Heart: Missing
My Body: Weak
My Soul: Eternal

The Way Out Is Broken

Holding on tightly never worked for me
Show me where the door is cause I'm failing to see
Take your feet out watching you bleed out
I'm the worst at knowing when my curtains been called

On my way out of the dreams I've made
I'm on my way, I'm seeing I was always destined to be

Predictable and alone
Predictable and alone for the long run
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again

Maybe I'm the champion of being alone

Saving your last glance, burning our last chance
Nothing's gonna stop what was always meant to be

On my way out of the dreams I've made
I'm on my way, I'm seeing I was always destined to be

Predictable and alone
Predictable and alone for the long run
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again

You can't stop the earth
from spinning under your toes
You can't soak up the sea, just like
you can't stop what you are destined to be

Predictable and alone (for the long run)
Predictable and alone for the long run
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again
Predictable and alone
Predictable and alone for the long run
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again

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Where were you when I needed you most? I hate how you'll never come back. How you can't come back. Why did you leave me when I had no one else? You showed me how to leave.

Brighter

So this is how it goes
Well I, I would have never known
And if it ends today
Well I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone

Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.

Well this is not your fault
But if I'm without you
Then I will feel so small
And if you have to go
Well always know that you shine brighter than anyone does.

Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.

If you run away now,
Will you come back around?
And if you ran away,
I'd still wave goodbye
Watching you shine bright.

Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.

I'll wave goodbye (You shine bright)
Watching you shine bright (You shine bright)
I'll wave goodbye tonight (You shine bright)

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I'm trying not to pretend anymore. I'm trying to be a better person. To put me second. Over the years, I have become a selfish person who wants everything and gives nothing. When things don't go as planned, I take it out on everyone else. I say, "Fuck you, I don't need you." But the truth is, I do. I need people who are there for me, but am I giving any reason for them to be there? No, I don't think so. So now, I'm trying to give you a reason. Believe me when I say that I am sorry for every horrible thing I've said, done, or insinuated. I'm sorry for giving you a reason to doubt me, a reason to say, "Fuck you." I'm going to be around for a while, and I'm just wondering if you will be too?

Memento Mori

Narrative fear.
A fever is dancing in stride – metronome memory.
Hypocrisy here is painting a portrait that's dripping with crass composition.
Fumbled trust, the father is dead, cathedrals are burning.
Lies fuel fires, fear burns red.
Now I'm cold, is this over?
Going inside of our, going inside of our heads.
When we whisper, "Danger, danger," pull the lever, turn the page
and I burn better in the morning.
Heartlessness narratives. Christ, where'd you go?
Impassioned, abandoned. Why, you were wrong.

This will die out.
Narrative fear.
A fever is dancing in stride – metronome memory.
Hypocrisy here is painting a portrait that's screaming, "The silence of dying."
Fumbled trust, the father is dead, cathedrals are burning.
Lies fuel fire, fear burns red.
Going inside of our, going inside of our heads.
When we whisper, "Danger, danger. Pull the lever,"
and I burn better in the morning.
Heartlessness narratives. Christ, where'd you go?
Impassioned, abandoned. Why, you were wrong.

Heartlessness narratives. Christ, where'd you go?
Impassioned, abandoned. Why, you were wrong.
We've forgotten how to read, we've forgotten how to believe.
The text has gone dark, the author recedes.
We've forgotten how to read, we've forgotten how to believe.
The text has gone dark, the author recedes.

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I'm having a hard time realizing how much time I have let pass me by. At this age, I should be getting a real job. Not my career job, but a firm stepping stone. Yet, where am I? At a job where everyone is fake. Pretending they care. Pretending that this makes them happy. Sure it's a nice place to work and there are cool clothes. But, at the end of the day, everything changes but you. Old clothes shift out, new one come in. It's hard not to imagine things when I'm working. I imagine the awesome clothes I have, and the awesome closet that stores them. I imagine the awesome apartment I live in, and the awesome job I have. But it all disappears when someone says, "Excuse me?"

On another note, it lets me know that I can't expect everything to be easy. I have to work towards what I want to be. As a kid, the one question that's not new to anyone is, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Over the years, I've changed my mind tonnes of times (I'll let you in on a few: teacher, accountant, psychologist, personal trainer, interior designer, nutritionist, physiotherapist, accountant, etc...). But all we ever think about is the end result. I think over the years, that's the only thing I thought about. It's time to move along and focus on the process to get to that end result. I need focus, dedication, determination, and passion. I think I can do it. But, I say a lot of things. I honestly need to get a move on with my life. I'm 20. After next year, when school is done, where will I be? If I don't have that drive and passion now, I will probably end up jobless, homeless, and contemplating life. It's time to start my life. Now, or never.

If I Were A Boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I could turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

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Current song obsession. Video = Awesome. Youtube that shit.

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Well, stressful times are over for now. Oh man. I can't wait for sleep. Lovely.

Slow Me Down

Just slow me, slow me down
Slow me down, slow me down

Rushing and racing and running in circles
Moving so fast I’m forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
I’m getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world, I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I’ve got it together, I’m falling apart

Save me, somebody take my hand and lead me
Slow me down, don’t let love pass me by
Just show me how 'cause I’m ready to fall

Slow me down, don’t let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might disappear
In the blur of fast-forward I falter again
Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep, I’m getting nowhere

All that I’ve missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn’t paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running, I’m falling apart

Tell me, oh, won’t you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down, don’t let love pass me by
Just show me how 'cause I’m ready to fall

Slow me down, don’t let me live a lie
Before my life flies by, I need you to slow me down
Just show me, I need you to slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe, somebody please slow me down

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Inspiration. Dreams. How do I get them back? I am not the person I used to be. Facing reality, unable to see the person I am. Unable to figure out how to get to the person I want to become. Just waiting for the day I can disappear.

The Ultimate Coverup

Left alone, your voice once gave me the comfort to continue.

Two thousand miles, I'm hopeless and broken
You're gutless and hopin' to run into hope
And this isn't getting any easier

They won't understand it
What you've hidden from them,
And this isn't getting any easier.

So is this what you wanted?
Too bad, it's what you got.
So should this be my farewell?
Come on, you know me too well.

So is this what you wanted?
Too bad, it's what you got.
So should this be my farewell?
Come on, you know me too well.

Once again, your lies still give me the heartache to continue.
One thousand miles, you're coming closer
It's been so long I can hardly remember
This is getting so much easier

They won't understand it,
What you've hidden from them
And this is getting so much easier

So is this what you wanted?
Too bad, it's what you got.
So should this be my farewell?
Come on, you know me too well.

So is this what you wanted?
Too bad, it's what you got.
So should this be my farewell?
Come on, you know me too well.

Once again, your lies still give me the heartache to continue.

So is this what you wanted?
Too bad, it's what you got.
So should this be my farewell?
Come on, you know me too well.

So is this what you wanted?
Too bad, it's what you got.
So should this be my farewell?
Come on, you know me too well.

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Would you look at me the same if I changed? If I wasn't the person you knew anymore? If I became the very person you despised? What if I told you it was the real me? Would you still see right through me? You're lying.

The City is Contagious

The word is out; this town can hardly breathe
When air is filled with dust and dying dreams
Attaching wings to all the sights
We're making sure these buildings fly
We worked too hard to leave without a fight

Go ahead and tell everyone you know
We stole the show

Right now, this town is for the taking
We'll bring neon to its knees
Our time to shine beyond the pavement
We've got everything we need
So turn the music up; you're hearing more than sound
Right now, this town is for the taking
And it's all we'll ever need

The word is out; this town, it never sleeps
A feeding ground for those who still believe
Kissing curbs to bide our time
On this last night to feel alive
We will never leave this place behind

Go ahead and tell everyone you know
We stole the show

Right now, this town is for the taking
We'll bring neon to its knees
Our time to shine beyond the pavement
We've got everything we need
So turn the music up; you're hearing more than sound
Right now, this town is for the taking
And it's all we'll ever need

Make us; this city's contagious
Caught inside its pages
We are leaving it all
Hate us; it'll only save us
Stronger than we came up
We are leaving it all

Hate us; it'll only save us
(Right now, this town is for the taking)
Stronger than we came up
(We'll bring neon to its knees)
We are leaving it all
(Our time to shine beyond the pavement)
We've got everything we need

Right now, this town is for the taking
We'll bring neon to its knees
Our time to shine beyond the pavement
We've got everything we need
So turn the music up; you're hearing more than sound
Right now, this town is for the taking
And it's all we'll ever need

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The future is bright. There's no where to go but up.

Carry On

I heard your footsteps this morning.
You know it’s hard to get by when you don’t sleep at all.

I’m just trying to be honest when I say my body’s feeling tired,
and I’ve got to move on,
but I hope and I pray that your legs will somehow find the strength.

And they all carry on. They want nothing but to be better off,
and I’ve hurt and I've aged,
but I found it in my heart to believe. You are home.

Some nights I have this blurred vision,
where we dance in a dream to the songs that we love.
Those songs have play for the lonely souls who where singing along
when it wasn’t enough just to hope,
and to pray that their body’s somehow find the strength.

And they all carry on. They want nothing but to be better off,
and I’ve hurt and I've aged,
but I found it in my heart to believe.

I’ve been waiting for good news since you left.
A little piece of my heart's been pounding out of my chest.
We’re waiting for good news, aren’t we now?

And they all carry on. They want nothing but to be better off,
and I’ve hurt and I've aged,
but I found it in my heart to believe. You are home.

I’ve been waiting for good news since you left.
A little piece of my heart's been pounding out of my chest. (You are home.)
We’re waiting for good news, aren’t we now?

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I am a robot.
I have assessments to prove it.

Chemicals

The lights in your room keep on blinking off.
And I’m on my back, on your floor.
Tell me how you fooled the world again,
I like how you laugh when you tell it.

Play dead, cause I’ll be playing dead with you.
I’ll play you when you’re dead in a year or two.

Can you please point me to your chemicals?
I need to feel like I’ve got rocks in my eyelids.
The only superhero I’ve ever known was you, about 5 years ago.
It was you about 5 years ago.

The lights outside turn into knives on me and I forget how to get home.
It only feels like it’s the summer now,
cause everyone’s always wearing the wrong clothes.

Play dead, cause I’ll be playing dead with you.
I’ll play you when you’re dead in a year or two.

Can you please point me to your chemicals?
I need to feel like I’ve got rocks in my eyelids.
The only superhero I’ve ever known was you, about 5 years ago.
It was you about 5 years ago.

I can picture your coffin in the hallway;
And your family standing inside the doorway.
They’ll point all their fingers at me and say,

‘Where are your drugs? Today we need them.
Where are your drugs? We need an escape.’


Can you please point me to your chemicals?
I need to feel like I’ve got rocks in my eyelids.
The only superhero I’ve ever known was you,
about 5 years ago, was you about 5 years ago.

Where are your drugs? Today we need them.
Where are your drugs? We need your escape.
Where are your drugs? Today we need them.
Where are your drugs? We need your escape.
Where are your drugs? Today we need them
Where are your drugs?

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As the music gets louder, I sink deeper. Thoughts turn colder. I get lost in the dark abyss with nothing to follow. No lights. No pathway. And, not even my heart. I walk along the edge.

Turn up the music.