All To Myself

I don't patronize, I realize
I'm losing and this is my real life.
I am half asleep, and I am wide awake.
This habit is always so hard to break.

I don't want to be the bad guy,
I've been blaming myself and I think you know why.
I'm killing time, and time's killing you
Every way that I do.

Did you say "please just follow me?"
I thought you wanted me.
Cause I want you all to myself.
I can try to suck it up,
I just can't suck it up.
Make me feel like some one else

Please just follow me.
I thought you wanted me.
Cause I want you all to myself.
I can try to suck it up,
I just can't suck it up.
Make me feel like some one else

I'm under the gun, you're like the only one.
I just can't decide what I'm running from.
This isn't what I wanted, but
I can't keep my filthy fucking mouth shut.

It's not enough, it's never enough.
I just can't breathe without getting it stuck.
Can't focus it, but I try it
over and over again.

Did you say "please just follow me?"
I thought you wanted me.
Cause I want you all to myself.
I can try to suck it up,
I just can't suck it up.
Make me feel like some one else

Did you say "please just follow me?"
I thought you wanted me.
Cause I want you all to myself.
I can try to suck it up,
I just can't suck it up.
Make me feel like some one else

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Life has been very active the last couple days. School is definitely taking the lead. I went to the beach on Friday with a few friends from school. It was quite awesome. I was glad that it wasn't as complicated as it could have been. Fizzling interest boy didn't end up going, and old, but not that old boy couldn't make it. So, it was just about nine of us, just chilling out. We spent most of our time playing beach volleyball. Like actual beach volleyball. Swimsuits and everything! Scary but fun at the same time! I'd definitely do that again. Also, this week I had to finish my paper for my psychology class. I've been putting it off for weeks on end. This week was pretty much do or die. Since I failed to complete half of my paper by Friday, it meant that I couldn't go to my friend's party. Instead, I spent my Saturday night at home trying to hash out as much as I could before Sunday. It was a shame missing out on a drinking opportunity. Haha. I didn't have to work on Sunday, which allowed me to complete my paper to my satisfaction. Man, I hate how I procrastinate but I can't help it. Now, I have one final separating me and the rest of my summer! Ahh.

On another note, I've been working a lot more lately, picking up shifts at the Bloor/Yonge Jacob. They're giving me more hours in a week than 4 weeks working at Sherway. It's ridiculous. Either way, it's money in the bank. Once I have that, I can finally apply for OSAP. It's pretty late, but it's inevitable that I'm going to pay interest anyways.

Back to regular life...