And when we get home, I know we won't be home at all
This place we live, it is not where we belong
And I miss who we were in the town that we could call our own
Going back to get away after everything has changed
Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
So we stand here now and no one knows us at all
I won't get used to this
I won't get used to being gone
And going back won't feel the same if we aren't staying
Going back to get away after everything has changed
Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
Taking up our time
Taking up our time
Taking up our time
It's taking up our time again
Go back we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time again
Go back we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time again
Go back we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time, taking up our time
Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
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It's been a while since a very good blog. No promises here. Haha. Anyways, September is upon us and we soon go back to routine. I love routine. I love knowing how my day is going to go, knowing when it's going to end. Love it! Anyways, lately I've been in a slump. I'm finding myself in isolation all the time. Consciously of course. I'm in need of a really good laugh.
On another note, I've started another blog: healthyisbeauty.blogspot.com
It's pretty much a boring diary for my path of healthiness. I hope that it provides me the commitment I need to be healthier.
Showing posts with label Paramore. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Paramore. Show all posts
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Misery Business
I'm in the business of misery,
Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass, it's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.
I waited eight long months,
She finally set him free.
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me.
Two weeks and we've caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.
Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I passed it up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him right now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.
I watched his wildest dreams come true
And not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.
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I don't understand why people think I'm complicated. I'm really not. I don't understand why people think I sleep around, when clearly I don't. Really? Come on.
It's Saturday night and I'm home yet again. Not that I mind of course because I love being at home. But it's just that my life is pretty dull right now. Not having crazy nights. It's easy on my wallet, but hard on my state of being. Something like that. Just one super-fun night like every two weeks would be awesome.
Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass, it's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.
I waited eight long months,
She finally set him free.
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me.
Two weeks and we've caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.
Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I passed it up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him right now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.
I watched his wildest dreams come true
And not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.
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I don't understand why people think I'm complicated. I'm really not. I don't understand why people think I sleep around, when clearly I don't. Really? Come on.
It's Saturday night and I'm home yet again. Not that I mind of course because I love being at home. But it's just that my life is pretty dull right now. Not having crazy nights. It's easy on my wallet, but hard on my state of being. Something like that. Just one super-fun night like every two weeks would be awesome.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
We Are Broken
I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Yeah
'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole
Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
It came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole
Tower over me
Tower over me
And I'll take the truth at any cost
'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole
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Why do looks matter so much?
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Yeah
'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole
Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
It came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole
Tower over me
Tower over me
And I'll take the truth at any cost
'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole
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Why do looks matter so much?
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
That's What You Get
No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!
Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?
That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
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Where perfect communication doesn't exist, chaos does. Well, not chaos per-se, but it makes things way too difficult than it needs to be.
Trying to keep my life in balance, all I can do is try to use my time wisely. But I find it too easy to fall back to a routine that contradicts what I want to be.
Love.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!
Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?
That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
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Where perfect communication doesn't exist, chaos does. Well, not chaos per-se, but it makes things way too difficult than it needs to be.
Trying to keep my life in balance, all I can do is try to use my time wisely. But I find it too easy to fall back to a routine that contradicts what I want to be.
Love.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Brighter
So this is how it goes
Well I, I would have never known
And if it ends today
Well I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone
Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.
Well this is not your fault
But if I'm without you
Then I will feel so small
And if you have to go
Well always know that you shine brighter than anyone does.
Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.
If you run away now,
Will you come back around?
And if you ran away,
I'd still wave goodbye
Watching you shine bright.
Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.
I'll wave goodbye (You shine bright)
Watching you shine bright (You shine bright)
I'll wave goodbye tonight (You shine bright)
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I'm trying not to pretend anymore. I'm trying to be a better person. To put me second. Over the years, I have become a selfish person who wants everything and gives nothing. When things don't go as planned, I take it out on everyone else. I say, "Fuck you, I don't need you." But the truth is, I do. I need people who are there for me, but am I giving any reason for them to be there? No, I don't think so. So now, I'm trying to give you a reason. Believe me when I say that I am sorry for every horrible thing I've said, done, or insinuated. I'm sorry for giving you a reason to doubt me, a reason to say, "Fuck you." I'm going to be around for a while, and I'm just wondering if you will be too?
Well I, I would have never known
And if it ends today
Well I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone
Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.
Well this is not your fault
But if I'm without you
Then I will feel so small
And if you have to go
Well always know that you shine brighter than anyone does.
Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.
If you run away now,
Will you come back around?
And if you ran away,
I'd still wave goodbye
Watching you shine bright.
Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.
I'll wave goodbye (You shine bright)
Watching you shine bright (You shine bright)
I'll wave goodbye tonight (You shine bright)
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I'm trying not to pretend anymore. I'm trying to be a better person. To put me second. Over the years, I have become a selfish person who wants everything and gives nothing. When things don't go as planned, I take it out on everyone else. I say, "Fuck you, I don't need you." But the truth is, I do. I need people who are there for me, but am I giving any reason for them to be there? No, I don't think so. So now, I'm trying to give you a reason. Believe me when I say that I am sorry for every horrible thing I've said, done, or insinuated. I'm sorry for giving you a reason to doubt me, a reason to say, "Fuck you." I'm going to be around for a while, and I'm just wondering if you will be too?
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Here We Go Again
And here we go again
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back,
These words and hold our breath
Forget the things we swore we meant
I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not.
And here we go again
With all the things we did
And now I'm wondering
Just who would I have been
To be the one attached
At all times to your hip?
Forget the things we swore we meant.
I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Oh (No, I'm not)
I'll write you to, to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not. (No, I'm not)
I'm not, I'm not.
And here we go again
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back...
(No, I'm not)
So we just take it back...
(I'm not)
So we just take it back...
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TOP 5s ATM
Top 5 Movies:
1. Titanic
2. Love Actually
3. 10 Things I Hate About You
4. Troy
5. Mean Girls
Top 5 Actors:
1. Julia Roberts
2. Meg Ryan
3. Brad Pitt
4. Reese Witherspoon
5. Jason Segal
Top 5 Songs:
1. Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey
2. Classifieds - The Academy Is...
3. between you and i - every avenue
4. My Heart - Paramore
5. Someone Else's Arms - Armor For Sleep
Top 5 Artists:
1. Armor For Sleep
2. The Academy Is...
3. Paramore
4. Josh Groban
5. Jack's Mannequin
Top 5 Moments:
1. ------
2. ------
3. Panic Concert #1
4. TAI Weekend #1
5. Getting bitten in the face in first grade
Top 5 Loves:
1. AFS
2. TAI
3. The warm and fuzzy feeling
4. Vanilla icecream
5. Rain
Top 5 Hates:
1. Ambiguity
2. Messes caused by others
3. Not finding the right clothes when you need them
4. Slow people walking in front of me
5. My internet connection at home
Top 5 Guilty Pleasures:
1. Love songs
2. The smell of after-the-shower clean
3. Saved by the Bell (The Kelly and Zack days) reruns
4. The subway ride
5. Spice Girls
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back,
These words and hold our breath
Forget the things we swore we meant
I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not.
And here we go again
With all the things we did
And now I'm wondering
Just who would I have been
To be the one attached
At all times to your hip?
Forget the things we swore we meant.
I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Oh (No, I'm not)
I'll write you to, to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not. (No, I'm not)
I'm not, I'm not.
And here we go again
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back...
(No, I'm not)
So we just take it back...
(I'm not)
So we just take it back...
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TOP 5s ATM
Top 5 Movies:
1. Titanic
2. Love Actually
3. 10 Things I Hate About You
4. Troy
5. Mean Girls
Top 5 Actors:
1. Julia Roberts
2. Meg Ryan
3. Brad Pitt
4. Reese Witherspoon
5. Jason Segal
Top 5 Songs:
1. Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey
2. Classifieds - The Academy Is...
3. between you and i - every avenue
4. My Heart - Paramore
5. Someone Else's Arms - Armor For Sleep
Top 5 Artists:
1. Armor For Sleep
2. The Academy Is...
3. Paramore
4. Josh Groban
5. Jack's Mannequin
Top 5 Moments:
1. ------
2. ------
3. Panic Concert #1
4. TAI Weekend #1
5. Getting bitten in the face in first grade
Top 5 Loves:
1. AFS
2. TAI
3. The warm and fuzzy feeling
4. Vanilla icecream
5. Rain
Top 5 Hates:
1. Ambiguity
2. Messes caused by others
3. Not finding the right clothes when you need them
4. Slow people walking in front of me
5. My internet connection at home
Top 5 Guilty Pleasures:
1. Love songs
2. The smell of after-the-shower clean
3. Saved by the Bell (The Kelly and Zack days) reruns
4. The subway ride
5. Spice Girls
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
When It Rains
And when it rains,
On this side of town it touches, everything.
Just say it again and mean it.
We don't miss a thing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?
And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
And oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?
Take your time.
Take my time.
Take these chances to turn it around. (take your time)
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around. (take my...)
Just turn it around.
Oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?
You can take your time, take my time.
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A couple of weeks ago, I was in class and we were talking about intrinsic and terminal values and at the top of my list was honesty. Then why am I finding myself lying? Or intending to lie? I hate it when other people lie to me. I'm starting to smell a hypocrite and it needs to stop. I need to not lie to myself, and to the people around me. Apologies for the damage done.
** Correction: Instrumental and terminal values.. see, I lie..
On this side of town it touches, everything.
Just say it again and mean it.
We don't miss a thing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?
And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
And oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?
Take your time.
Take my time.
Take these chances to turn it around. (take your time)
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around. (take my...)
Just turn it around.
Oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?
You can take your time, take my time.
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A couple of weeks ago, I was in class and we were talking about intrinsic and terminal values and at the top of my list was honesty. Then why am I finding myself lying? Or intending to lie? I hate it when other people lie to me. I'm starting to smell a hypocrite and it needs to stop. I need to not lie to myself, and to the people around me. Apologies for the damage done.
** Correction: Instrumental and terminal values.. see, I lie..
Friday, September 19, 2008
My Heart
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening.
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...
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My days are not filled with what they should be. I find myself in a lethargic state all the time. Lately, I'm always tired, unmotivated, and uninspired. I need to change. I'm full of bullshit. Deep down, I don't have the fight in me to survive. I've been saying for a while that this year is the year. But, somehow it's not happening. I want it to. Am I afraid of the let down? Definitely. I know I have to somehow find that drive that has gotten me this far, and somehow find a way to sustain it to last a lifetime. How? I want to show people that I am better. That I can be somebody. That I am somebody. Somehow the passion and determination has left me. Then, what is left of me? Nothing but thoughts about the unknown. Time is slipping by, and what am I doing with my life? Pretending that I am where I want to be? Pretending that I am something I am not in my heart? Pretending that what I'm doing is getting me somewhere. Once the make-up is gone, what is there? Unfortunately, I am the only one who knows.
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening.
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...
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My days are not filled with what they should be. I find myself in a lethargic state all the time. Lately, I'm always tired, unmotivated, and uninspired. I need to change. I'm full of bullshit. Deep down, I don't have the fight in me to survive. I've been saying for a while that this year is the year. But, somehow it's not happening. I want it to. Am I afraid of the let down? Definitely. I know I have to somehow find that drive that has gotten me this far, and somehow find a way to sustain it to last a lifetime. How? I want to show people that I am better. That I can be somebody. That I am somebody. Somehow the passion and determination has left me. Then, what is left of me? Nothing but thoughts about the unknown. Time is slipping by, and what am I doing with my life? Pretending that I am where I want to be? Pretending that I am something I am not in my heart? Pretending that what I'm doing is getting me somewhere. Once the make-up is gone, what is there? Unfortunately, I am the only one who knows.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
That's What You Get
No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!
Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?
That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
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More on this robot shit...
I have no feelings. I am a robot. Well, not really. I'm a self-admitted quiet-non-talker-cares-about-what-people-think-wall-up kinda girl. A couple days ago, I was working and it suddenly hit me that when things happen in my life that should yield certain emotions/reactions, it doesn't quite happen and doesn't effect me as they should. I realized that I tend to dismiss things and not care about things as much as other people do. I don't cry about anything (unless it's a movie that doesn't end the way I want it to.. I think I have a thing with idealism..). I don't cry when people die in real life. Aren't I a robot? When shit happens, shit just blows over. I think I just have a mentality that when things go wrong, "Fuck it, I don't need this shit". That's how it's always been my whole life or for as long as I remember. I don't need unnecessary stress to happen to me. I can't understand how people can cry over the most insignificant things and call themselves an adult. Seriously. What. The. Hell. People are starving elsewhere, cry over that. Seriously.
Moving onwards, round 15 of my education began today. Familiar faces in familiar places is all I have to say. Already I am dreading the last week of November! Crazy Shit mixed with TAI and Cobra. Oh man. How am I gunna get through this? All I have to say is PLAN PLAN PLAN then do. Plus extra shit has come along. Well, I can't really call it shit, because I welcomed it. Partner, Bitches! Haha oh man, I need a corona. plus lime. Anyways, the next few months will be full of learning, stress, confusion, fear, and accomplishment. Wish me luck.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!
Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?
That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
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More on this robot shit...
I have no feelings. I am a robot. Well, not really. I'm a self-admitted quiet-non-talker-cares-about-what-people-think-wall-up kinda girl. A couple days ago, I was working and it suddenly hit me that when things happen in my life that should yield certain emotions/reactions, it doesn't quite happen and doesn't effect me as they should. I realized that I tend to dismiss things and not care about things as much as other people do. I don't cry about anything (unless it's a movie that doesn't end the way I want it to.. I think I have a thing with idealism..). I don't cry when people die in real life. Aren't I a robot? When shit happens, shit just blows over. I think I just have a mentality that when things go wrong, "Fuck it, I don't need this shit". That's how it's always been my whole life or for as long as I remember. I don't need unnecessary stress to happen to me. I can't understand how people can cry over the most insignificant things and call themselves an adult. Seriously. What. The. Hell. People are starving elsewhere, cry over that. Seriously.
Moving onwards, round 15 of my education began today. Familiar faces in familiar places is all I have to say. Already I am dreading the last week of November! Crazy Shit mixed with TAI and Cobra. Oh man. How am I gunna get through this? All I have to say is PLAN PLAN PLAN then do. Plus extra shit has come along. Well, I can't really call it shit, because I welcomed it. Partner, Bitches! Haha oh man, I need a corona. plus lime. Anyways, the next few months will be full of learning, stress, confusion, fear, and accomplishment. Wish me luck.
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