Leave Out All The Rest

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

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As much as I've said and wanted it, this year is nothing different. Holidays are ending up as they usually do. Full of nothing special and going by way too fast. Full of stress that shouldn't be there. Expectations turned disappointments. Every year it ends up being the fucking same no matter how much I am trying to will it not to be. I wish to be anywhere but here. Anywhere.

I always want what I can't have.
Happiness isn't for me. If you knew, you would turn away. Don't say you won't because I know you'll be lying. No wonder why the Christmas season has the most suicides.

D. It is written