Wish You Were

Gone away are the golden days
Just a page in my diary
So here I am, a utopian citizen
Still convinced there's no such thing as idealism

Memories they're following me like a shadow now
And I'm dreaming
And I've already suffered the fever of disbelief

I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

I was true as the sky is blue
I couldn't soon say the same for you
So now I find denial in my eyes
I'm mesmerized by the picture that's in my mind

Tell me when I'll finally see your shallow heart
For what it is
Cause I don't want to keep on believing in illusions

Sometimes I can't explain
And I'm so sorry that I can't
I'll try to concentrate
On your true identity

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Ok, it's almost the end of May and I haven't accomplished much at all. I finding myself spending entire days in bed if I'm not at work, just watching hours and hours of One Tree Hill. I'm gaining weight, feeling tired, and breaking out like mad. I shall go sign up for the gym tomorrow! If anything, the gym will be emptier than ever so I'm free to look more terrible. Time to get off my ass and accomplish shit in my life. Ta.

*Edit: Clearly, I can't afford the gym. So, I shall being my job hunt! =)