Tears and Rain

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

Tears and Rain.

Tears and Rain.

Far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

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I just wish that I could tell you everything. I want to. But some part of me knows that you will not look at me the same. I don't think anyone could convince me otherwise. Because of my fear, you will never know. One day, maybe.

I've been thinking a lot over the past few days, and I've come up with the conclusion that I seriously don't think I could ever let myself get emotionally close to another person. Just for a fear of getting hurt. Leave before they can leave you. It's the most juvenile thing in the world, but I can't exactly help it. Then, I can't exactly complain about my current situation. Maybe, I just like the feeling of having some sort of control.