So She Dances

A waltz when she walks in the room
She pulls back the hair from her face
She turns to the window to sway in the moonlight
Even her shadow has grace
A waltz for the girl out of reach
She lifts her hands up to the sky
She moves with the music
The song is her lover
The melody's making her cry
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently

A waltz for the chance I should take
But how will I know where to start?
She's spinning between constellations and dreams
Her rhythm is my beating heart

So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently

I can't keep on watching forever
I'd give up this view just to tell her

When I close my eyes I can see
The spotlights are bright on you and me
We've got the floor
And you're in my arms
How could I ask for more?

So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently

I can't keep on watching forever
And I'm givin' up this view just to tell her

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I want you to stop pretending. Stop pretending so everyone else feels sorry for you. So you can build yourself up. Stop pretending you don't see it when clearly you can. You don't know that it hurts me. I'm too much of a coward to tell you that. Fuck. Blame everyone else, but all the blame falls on yourself. Too much of my life has been in the shadows of yours. It's time to let the sun fucking shine through. I hate that you can't see what it's doing to me. But, I'm afraid that if I don't encourage you to do what you do, that I will become you. I see what you've become and I don't want it. In the end, I want to stop pretending that it's ok. It's not fucking ok.

Believe

Children sleeping, snow is softly falling
Dreams are calling like bells in the distance
We were dreamers not so long ago
But one by one we all had to grow up
When it seems the magic's slipped away
We find it all again on Christmas day

Believe in what your heart is saying
Hear the melody that's playing
There's no time to waste
There's so much to celebrate
Believe in what you feel inside
And give your dreams the wings to fly
You have everything you need
If you just believe

Trains move quickly to their journey's end
Destinations are where we begin again
Ships go sailing far across the sea
Trusting starlight to get where they need to be
When it seems that we have lost our way
We find ourselves again on Christmas day

Believe in what your heart is saying
Hear the melody that's playing
There's no time to waste
There's so much to celebrate
Believe in what you feel inside
And give your dreams the wings to fly
You have everything you need
If you just believe

Just believe

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And so let the Christmas celebrating begin...
I finished 3/4 exams and time to relax just a bit. For the past 4 days straight, I have been studying for my exams... for Wednesday, Friday, and today. So sad my life has become. Christmas is coming slowly but surely. I'm watching The Family Stone right now, and I'm so excited since my next exam is four days from now. Then time to read and have some time to sleep! I love sleep. I loveeee sleep. Enough about that.

So today I decide to be cute and all and wear tights with a dress and no socks in my shoes. Who knew it would be unbelievably fucking cold. But no worries, my feet are still intact. As I got off the bus on the way home, it started snowing. Not the chunky, flaky kind. It was the small, barely-a-snowflake kind, fluttering slowly with the wind. Just the early signs of what winter has to offer. It was quite relaxing, despite the coldness against my legs. Quite beautiful really. Just solids that have been to the skies and back, disappearing once the wind has taken it where it had to go. So that's my story about snow. I usually hate snow. But not today.

Update: A shitload of snow just fell.

Oceano

Piove sull'oceano
Piove sull'oceano
Piove sulla mia identità

Lampi sull'oceano
Lampi sull'oceano
Squarci di luminosità

Forse là in America
I venti del Pacifico
Scoprono le sue immensità
Le mie mani stringono
Sogni lontanissimi
E il mio pensiero corre da te

Remo, tremo, sento
Profondi, oscuri abissi

E' per l'amore che ti do
E' per l'amore che non sai
Che mi fai naufragare
E' per l'amore che non ho
E' per l'amore che vorrei
E' per questo dolore
E' questo amore che ho per te

Che mi fa superare queste vere tempeste
Onde sull'oceano
Onde sull'oceano
Che dolcemente si placherà
Le mie mani stringono
Sogni lontanissimi
E il tuo respiro soffia su di me

Remo, tremo, sento
Vento intorno al cuore
E' per l'amore che ho per te
Che mi fa superare mille tempeste
E' per l'amore che ti do
E' per l'amore che vorrei
Da questo mare
E' per la vita che non c'è
Che mi fai naufragare
In fondo al cuore
Tutto questo ti avrà
E a te sembrerà tutto normal

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For not believing. For giving up. For not trying hard enough. For letting you down. For not being there. For leaving you alone. For not stopping it. For not caring. For letting you give up. For letting you go.

I'm sorry.