Baby, oh
Even in my heart I see
You're not bein' true to me
Deep within my soul I feel
Nothing's like it used to be
Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad baby
Quit play's games with my heart
Quit playin' games with my heart (with my heart)
Before you tear us apart (my heart)
Quit playin' games with my heart
I should've known from the start
You know you've gotta stop (from my heart)
You're tearin' us apart (my heart, my heart)
Quit playin' games with my heart
I live my life the way
To keep you comin' back to me
Everything I do is for you
So what is it that you can't see
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time, impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
You better quit playin' games with my heart
Quit playin' games
Baby, baby the love that we had was so strong
Don't leave me hangin' here forever
Oh baby, baby this is not alright, let's stop this tonight
Baby, oh
Quit playin' games
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na baby
Na na na na na
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time, impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
Quit playin' games with my heart
Quit playin' games with my heart
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na baby
Na na na na na
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Why can't you find me already?
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Mama's Song
Mama, you taught me to do the right things.
So, now you have to let your baby fly.
You've given me everything that I will need.
To make it through this crazy thing called life.
And I know you watched me grow up,
and only want what's best for me.
And I think I found the answer to your prayers.
And he is good, so good.
He treats your little girl,
like a real man should.
He is good, SO good.
He makes promises he keeps.
No, he's never gonna leave.
So, don't you worry about me.
Don't you worry about me.
Mama, there's no way you'll ever lose me.
Giving me away is not goodbye.
As you watch me walk down to my future,
I hope tears of joy are in your eyes.
Cause, he is good, so good.
And, he treats your little girl,
like a real man should.
He is good, SO good.
He makes promises he keeps.
No, he's never gonna leave.
So, don't you worry about me.
Don't you worry about me.
And when I watch my baby grow up,
I'll only want what's best for her.
And I hope she'll find,
the answer to my prayers.
And that she'll say...
He is good, so good.
And he treats your little girl,
like a real man should.
He is good, SO good.
He makes promises he keeps.
No, he's never gonna leave.
So, don't you worry about me.
Don't you worry about me.
Mama, don't you worry about me.
Don't you worry about me.
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At 22, it's not hard to believe that you're young, healthy, and strong. Nothing could hurt you. However, recent events have definitely put things into perspective. First, with my best friend who was in the hospital for a week, not too long ago. Only when someone's health and life are in danger, is when we realize how precious life is, and to not take things for granted. To tell those who matter, that you care and love them. Allowing yourself to be vulnerable for just one moment.
Just a day ago, I was in my bathroom. Feeling lightheaded, I placed both my hands on the sink counter to brace myself. I remember closing my eyes and saying to myself, "It's ok, you just need to lay down". Feeling like I was ok to start moving, I unlocked the door handle and opened the door. As I took a step, I felt a rush of lightheadness and my legs gave out. I had felt my head hit the tile and vibration was sent throughout my entire body. I then opened my eyes and heard my mom rush out of her room to find me laying in the bathroom.
I felt like an idiot. Couldn't even control my own body. Embarrassed. My mom then guided me to her bedroom and told me to lay in her bed until I felt better. She kept saying how scared she was because I had blacked out once before, and that out of my brother and sister, she always worried about me.
At 22, I was in my mother's arms and nothing in the world mattered. I was her baby. I was the most vulnerable I have been in quite some time. I was not invincible. Sometimes in life, we get little reminders of what matters. It's easy to focus on where's your life headed, what job you need, or how much you need to save. But once in a while, we need to cherish how good we have it. To have a family that loves you no matter what. To have friends who care for you so much. To have love in your life.
So, now you have to let your baby fly.
You've given me everything that I will need.
To make it through this crazy thing called life.
And I know you watched me grow up,
and only want what's best for me.
And I think I found the answer to your prayers.
And he is good, so good.
He treats your little girl,
like a real man should.
He is good, SO good.
He makes promises he keeps.
No, he's never gonna leave.
So, don't you worry about me.
Don't you worry about me.
Mama, there's no way you'll ever lose me.
Giving me away is not goodbye.
As you watch me walk down to my future,
I hope tears of joy are in your eyes.
Cause, he is good, so good.
And, he treats your little girl,
like a real man should.
He is good, SO good.
He makes promises he keeps.
No, he's never gonna leave.
So, don't you worry about me.
Don't you worry about me.
And when I watch my baby grow up,
I'll only want what's best for her.
And I hope she'll find,
the answer to my prayers.
And that she'll say...
He is good, so good.
And he treats your little girl,
like a real man should.
He is good, SO good.
He makes promises he keeps.
No, he's never gonna leave.
So, don't you worry about me.
Don't you worry about me.
Mama, don't you worry about me.
Don't you worry about me.
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At 22, it's not hard to believe that you're young, healthy, and strong. Nothing could hurt you. However, recent events have definitely put things into perspective. First, with my best friend who was in the hospital for a week, not too long ago. Only when someone's health and life are in danger, is when we realize how precious life is, and to not take things for granted. To tell those who matter, that you care and love them. Allowing yourself to be vulnerable for just one moment.
Just a day ago, I was in my bathroom. Feeling lightheaded, I placed both my hands on the sink counter to brace myself. I remember closing my eyes and saying to myself, "It's ok, you just need to lay down". Feeling like I was ok to start moving, I unlocked the door handle and opened the door. As I took a step, I felt a rush of lightheadness and my legs gave out. I had felt my head hit the tile and vibration was sent throughout my entire body. I then opened my eyes and heard my mom rush out of her room to find me laying in the bathroom.
I felt like an idiot. Couldn't even control my own body. Embarrassed. My mom then guided me to her bedroom and told me to lay in her bed until I felt better. She kept saying how scared she was because I had blacked out once before, and that out of my brother and sister, she always worried about me.
At 22, I was in my mother's arms and nothing in the world mattered. I was her baby. I was the most vulnerable I have been in quite some time. I was not invincible. Sometimes in life, we get little reminders of what matters. It's easy to focus on where's your life headed, what job you need, or how much you need to save. But once in a while, we need to cherish how good we have it. To have a family that loves you no matter what. To have friends who care for you so much. To have love in your life.
Friday, December 19, 2008
So She Dances
A waltz when she walks in the room
She pulls back the hair from her face
She turns to the window to sway in the moonlight
Even her shadow has grace
A waltz for the girl out of reach
She lifts her hands up to the sky
She moves with the music
The song is her lover
The melody's making her cry
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently
A waltz for the chance I should take
But how will I know where to start?
She's spinning between constellations and dreams
Her rhythm is my beating heart
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently
I can't keep on watching forever
I'd give up this view just to tell her
When I close my eyes I can see
The spotlights are bright on you and me
We've got the floor
And you're in my arms
How could I ask for more?
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently
I can't keep on watching forever
And I'm givin' up this view just to tell her
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I want you to stop pretending. Stop pretending so everyone else feels sorry for you. So you can build yourself up. Stop pretending you don't see it when clearly you can. You don't know that it hurts me. I'm too much of a coward to tell you that. Fuck. Blame everyone else, but all the blame falls on yourself. Too much of my life has been in the shadows of yours. It's time to let the sun fucking shine through. I hate that you can't see what it's doing to me. But, I'm afraid that if I don't encourage you to do what you do, that I will become you. I see what you've become and I don't want it. In the end, I want to stop pretending that it's ok. It's not fucking ok.
She pulls back the hair from her face
She turns to the window to sway in the moonlight
Even her shadow has grace
A waltz for the girl out of reach
She lifts her hands up to the sky
She moves with the music
The song is her lover
The melody's making her cry
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently
A waltz for the chance I should take
But how will I know where to start?
She's spinning between constellations and dreams
Her rhythm is my beating heart
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently
I can't keep on watching forever
I'd give up this view just to tell her
When I close my eyes I can see
The spotlights are bright on you and me
We've got the floor
And you're in my arms
How could I ask for more?
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently
I can't keep on watching forever
And I'm givin' up this view just to tell her
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I want you to stop pretending. Stop pretending so everyone else feels sorry for you. So you can build yourself up. Stop pretending you don't see it when clearly you can. You don't know that it hurts me. I'm too much of a coward to tell you that. Fuck. Blame everyone else, but all the blame falls on yourself. Too much of my life has been in the shadows of yours. It's time to let the sun fucking shine through. I hate that you can't see what it's doing to me. But, I'm afraid that if I don't encourage you to do what you do, that I will become you. I see what you've become and I don't want it. In the end, I want to stop pretending that it's ok. It's not fucking ok.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
The Call
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it, too
Doesn't means that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye bye
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I just bought "The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian" on DVD. I'm so psyched to watch it and fall in love with Narnia... and Prince Caspian again. Yay for imaginary lands and princes that are too hot for their own good.
Which then grew into hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it, too
Doesn't means that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye bye
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I just bought "The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian" on DVD. I'm so psyched to watch it and fall in love with Narnia... and Prince Caspian again. Yay for imaginary lands and princes that are too hot for their own good.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
May Your Heart
May your heart be never alone when
The dawn's breaking
May your life be a rolling stone when
The ground starts shaking
And the world is waking
All I can tell you is to know who you are
And if they hurt you they can never do you harm
And if you want to you can love 'em till
The cold turns warm
May your kiss always feel like the first kisses
And may your truth help you heal
May you catch big fishes and get all your wishes
All I can tell you is to know who you are...
If you want me (I will be there)
If you need me (I will be there)
If you want me (I will be there)
Can you hear me?
If you're waiting (I will be there)
Your heart's aching (I will be there)
If you need me (I will be there)
Can you hear me?
And when you're lonely (I will be there)
When you call me (I will be there)
If you need me (I will be there)
Believe me I'm going nowhere
May your heart be never alone.
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May your heart be never alone.
The dawn's breaking
May your life be a rolling stone when
The ground starts shaking
And the world is waking
All I can tell you is to know who you are
And if they hurt you they can never do you harm
And if you want to you can love 'em till
The cold turns warm
May your kiss always feel like the first kisses
And may your truth help you heal
May you catch big fishes and get all your wishes
All I can tell you is to know who you are...
If you want me (I will be there)
If you need me (I will be there)
If you want me (I will be there)
Can you hear me?
If you're waiting (I will be there)
Your heart's aching (I will be there)
If you need me (I will be there)
Can you hear me?
And when you're lonely (I will be there)
When you call me (I will be there)
If you need me (I will be there)
Believe me I'm going nowhere
May your heart be never alone.
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May your heart be never alone.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Lullaby
Didn’t they teach you?
Everything’s okay if you settle enough?
Forget your dreams
Let’s pretend I’m everything you want me to be
Complicated breathing
You never had the guts just to throw me away
Life moves slow
When everything’s a worse version of what you need
And I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
When you lost your balance walking around in the rain
And you got to your feet
Scratched your head and started to gather
The life that you dropped all around me
I can’t fight for a graveyard anymore
Some people have their money
To keep their legs pumping away at the ground
What moves me is fear
That I'll always be alone at the end of the day (at the end of the day)
And I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
When you lost your balance walking around in the rain
And you got to your feet
Scratched your head and started to gather
The life that you dropped all around me
I can’t fight for a graveyard
I can’t fight for a graveyard anymore
I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
And I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
When you lost your balance walking around in the rain
And you got to your feet
Scratched your head and started to gather
The life that you dropped all around me
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
I can’t fight for a graveyard anymore
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How do I keep the light from disappearing in your eyes, when you want it to?
Everything’s okay if you settle enough?
Forget your dreams
Let’s pretend I’m everything you want me to be
Complicated breathing
You never had the guts just to throw me away
Life moves slow
When everything’s a worse version of what you need
And I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
When you lost your balance walking around in the rain
And you got to your feet
Scratched your head and started to gather
The life that you dropped all around me
I can’t fight for a graveyard anymore
Some people have their money
To keep their legs pumping away at the ground
What moves me is fear
That I'll always be alone at the end of the day (at the end of the day)
And I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
When you lost your balance walking around in the rain
And you got to your feet
Scratched your head and started to gather
The life that you dropped all around me
I can’t fight for a graveyard
I can’t fight for a graveyard anymore
I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
And I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
When you lost your balance walking around in the rain
And you got to your feet
Scratched your head and started to gather
The life that you dropped all around me
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
I’m just the ground
I can’t fight for a graveyard anymore
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How do I keep the light from disappearing in your eyes, when you want it to?
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Love Story
We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.
I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.
Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, please don't go-
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.
I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...
Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.
We were both young when I first saw you.
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One day.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.
I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.
Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, please don't go-
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.
I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...
Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.
We were both young when I first saw you.
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One day.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Vegas Skies
It's twelve o' clock and I need your attention
It's like the alcohol making my head spin
Your scent is the rum, the room is a bottle
Keeping me hopeless till I wake tomorrow
And if tonight ever makes a difference
The way that I feel the way that I'll remember it
I'll take this down until the glass remains
Swallow the words that I was meant to say
It's a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don't, I make one more wrong turn tonight so
Say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right
All of these guards they stand tall and defensive
Putting up walls around what was once innocent
They won't let me in, but I'm stronger than that
'Cause you stole my eyes and I've never looked back
Girl last night I forgot to mention
The way that I feel the way that I'll remember this
When we're this young we have nothing to lose
Just a clock to beat and a hand to choose
It's a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don't, I make one more wrong turn tonight so
Say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right
It's a long way down
Just fall into place and you'll fall into me
We'll make it out you'll see
So say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right
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Love/
Romantic things in movies
The warm and fuzzy feeling
Coca-Cola Classic
Coca-cola Classic + Vodka
Corona + lime
Focus (the water, not the car)
Sweet dreams
Pizza right after drunkenness
Rocking out to lame music
Lame people
12 hours of sleep
Finding a seat on the subway
TAI
The smell of clean
Slow songs about love
Fairytales
Bad asses
Tattoos (the cool ones)
Piercings in the right places
Everything bagels + herb and garlic CC
Big zip-up hoodies
Purple and grey together
British accents, then Australian
Black skinny pants
Charm
England
Band t-shirts
Black socks
Roger Federer
Ben Barnes
Fashion
Black nailpolish
Always Be My Baby
Titanic
Love Actually
Movies in general
Hearts and lost keys
The smell of rain
Clear skies
*post inspired by tracy's
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Today I did nothing that I wanted to. Exhaustion was just too powerful. I didn't study, just tried to sleep some more. But I couldn't. Anyways, I got my tattoo touched up today. My god, it hurt way more than last time! The whole time I was clenching my hand, desperately trying not to move. After it was all done, it was all stingy. I didn't remember it being stingy last time. Oh the sacrifices for the things we love. I think I just wasn't mentally prepared/psyched as last time. Anyways, I asked 'Steve' if moshing was allowed with the tat. 'No', says 'Steve'. Haha, I might have to hold back on the moshing until it's healed =(. So its now about 1am. I have class at.. 8am? Not cool, Anita. Not cool. Well, I'm going to end the uneventful tales of my life, so you can all get back to yours. Cheers.
It's like the alcohol making my head spin
Your scent is the rum, the room is a bottle
Keeping me hopeless till I wake tomorrow
And if tonight ever makes a difference
The way that I feel the way that I'll remember it
I'll take this down until the glass remains
Swallow the words that I was meant to say
It's a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don't, I make one more wrong turn tonight so
Say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right
All of these guards they stand tall and defensive
Putting up walls around what was once innocent
They won't let me in, but I'm stronger than that
'Cause you stole my eyes and I've never looked back
Girl last night I forgot to mention
The way that I feel the way that I'll remember this
When we're this young we have nothing to lose
Just a clock to beat and a hand to choose
It's a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don't, I make one more wrong turn tonight so
Say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right
It's a long way down
Just fall into place and you'll fall into me
We'll make it out you'll see
So say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right
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Love/
Romantic things in movies
The warm and fuzzy feeling
Coca-Cola Classic
Coca-cola Classic + Vodka
Corona + lime
Focus (the water, not the car)
Sweet dreams
Pizza right after drunkenness
Rocking out to lame music
Lame people
12 hours of sleep
Finding a seat on the subway
TAI
The smell of clean
Slow songs about love
Fairytales
Bad asses
Tattoos (the cool ones)
Piercings in the right places
Everything bagels + herb and garlic CC
Big zip-up hoodies
Purple and grey together
British accents, then Australian
Black skinny pants
Charm
England
Band t-shirts
Black socks
Roger Federer
Ben Barnes
Fashion
Black nailpolish
Always Be My Baby
Titanic
Love Actually
Movies in general
Hearts and lost keys
The smell of rain
Clear skies
*post inspired by tracy's
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Note: A 'Hate' blog will follow
Today I did nothing that I wanted to. Exhaustion was just too powerful. I didn't study, just tried to sleep some more. But I couldn't. Anyways, I got my tattoo touched up today. My god, it hurt way more than last time! The whole time I was clenching my hand, desperately trying not to move. After it was all done, it was all stingy. I didn't remember it being stingy last time. Oh the sacrifices for the things we love. I think I just wasn't mentally prepared/psyched as last time. Anyways, I asked 'Steve' if moshing was allowed with the tat. 'No', says 'Steve'. Haha, I might have to hold back on the moshing until it's healed =(. So its now about 1am. I have class at.. 8am? Not cool, Anita. Not cool. Well, I'm going to end the uneventful tales of my life, so you can all get back to yours. Cheers.
Friday, September 5, 2008
Oceano
Piove sull'oceano
Piove sull'oceano
Piove sulla mia identità
Lampi sull'oceano
Lampi sull'oceano
Squarci di luminosità
Forse là in America
I venti del Pacifico
Scoprono le sue immensità
Le mie mani stringono
Sogni lontanissimi
E il mio pensiero corre da te
Remo, tremo, sento
Profondi, oscuri abissi
E' per l'amore che ti do
E' per l'amore che non sai
Che mi fai naufragare
E' per l'amore che non ho
E' per l'amore che vorrei
E' per questo dolore
E' questo amore che ho per te
Che mi fa superare queste vere tempeste
Onde sull'oceano
Onde sull'oceano
Che dolcemente si placherà
Le mie mani stringono
Sogni lontanissimi
E il tuo respiro soffia su di me
Remo, tremo, sento
Vento intorno al cuore
E' per l'amore che ho per te
Che mi fa superare mille tempeste
E' per l'amore che ti do
E' per l'amore che vorrei
Da questo mare
E' per la vita che non c'è
Che mi fai naufragare
In fondo al cuore
Tutto questo ti avrà
E a te sembrerà tutto normal
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For not believing. For giving up. For not trying hard enough. For letting you down. For not being there. For leaving you alone. For not stopping it. For not caring. For letting you give up. For letting you go.
I'm sorry.
Piove sull'oceano
Piove sulla mia identità
Lampi sull'oceano
Lampi sull'oceano
Squarci di luminosità
Forse là in America
I venti del Pacifico
Scoprono le sue immensità
Le mie mani stringono
Sogni lontanissimi
E il mio pensiero corre da te
Remo, tremo, sento
Profondi, oscuri abissi
E' per l'amore che ti do
E' per l'amore che non sai
Che mi fai naufragare
E' per l'amore che non ho
E' per l'amore che vorrei
E' per questo dolore
E' questo amore che ho per te
Che mi fa superare queste vere tempeste
Onde sull'oceano
Onde sull'oceano
Che dolcemente si placherà
Le mie mani stringono
Sogni lontanissimi
E il tuo respiro soffia su di me
Remo, tremo, sento
Vento intorno al cuore
E' per l'amore che ho per te
Che mi fa superare mille tempeste
E' per l'amore che ti do
E' per l'amore che vorrei
Da questo mare
E' per la vita che non c'è
Che mi fai naufragare
In fondo al cuore
Tutto questo ti avrà
E a te sembrerà tutto normal
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For not believing. For giving up. For not trying hard enough. For letting you down. For not being there. For leaving you alone. For not stopping it. For not caring. For letting you give up. For letting you go.
I'm sorry.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
American Love
You see I’ve got this American love
A brand new planet in the solar system
I kiss her neck, but I just can’t look her in the eye
You leave for college at the turn of autumn
I spent the winter diving to the bottom
I kiss your neck, but I just can’t look you in the eye
Yeah
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking (big hearts are breaking)
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking yeah
You see I’ve got this critical conscience
A brand new black hole in the solar system
I dig my grave, but can't stand to step inside
When they find out (when they find out)
They'll sound every siren, break the door down
To find a baby crying
You thought I knew that it's just not right to tell a lie
Yeah
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking (big hearts are breaking) oooh
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking yeah
Now there’s no turning back
Yeah my face of the sweat we share
There’s no where to run, we're so unprepared
It’s a new heart attack
Brand new breaks on my back to there
It’s sung, say a word, we might find us there
You see I’ve got this American love
A hidden planet in the solar system
Keep your eyes shut, I can't stand to say goodbye
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking (big hearts are breaking) oooh
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking yeah (big hearts are for breaking)
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Note: I could not find lyrics to this song, so I spent a good 20 minutes trying to figure the lyrics out. If it doesn't make sense, apologies in advance for Andrew being unable to articulate. If you happen to have found the lyrics, do not tell me because I will be sad.
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The past 2 days have been amazing as I was able to share it with the best 3 people in my life. With time and a little alcohol, I can say I have become closer to each and every one of them. It's crazy to even say that being friends for so long, we are able to still learn something new about each other. It just makes it a little harder to say goodbye for now.
PS. The scarf has been christened (and is making its way to bring us closer).
PPS. I'm wearing the scarf as I write.
PPPS. Something has been added to the scarf already!
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It's just surprising how things work out. It's impossible to avoid the inevitable. But when your intuition kicks in and red flags pop, what do you do? Do you, A, continue and pretend it doesn't exist, and that you're crazy for thinking it? Or B, be a realist and question 'why'? What would you really do? In these types of situations, it's hard to even admit that there is a possibility that things might not work out. But your heart tells you to believe and that it's not over until it's over. But your head tells you to get out now, it's going to hurt. Do you follow your heart, or your head? Once the inevitable happens, you feel like a fool for believing, a fool to think that things can work out. Note to self: Listen to your fucking head because it hurts.
A brand new planet in the solar system
I kiss her neck, but I just can’t look her in the eye
You leave for college at the turn of autumn
I spent the winter diving to the bottom
I kiss your neck, but I just can’t look you in the eye
Yeah
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking (big hearts are breaking)
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking yeah
You see I’ve got this critical conscience
A brand new black hole in the solar system
I dig my grave, but can't stand to step inside
When they find out (when they find out)
They'll sound every siren, break the door down
To find a baby crying
You thought I knew that it's just not right to tell a lie
Yeah
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking (big hearts are breaking) oooh
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking yeah
Now there’s no turning back
Yeah my face of the sweat we share
There’s no where to run, we're so unprepared
It’s a new heart attack
Brand new breaks on my back to there
It’s sung, say a word, we might find us there
You see I’ve got this American love
A hidden planet in the solar system
Keep your eyes shut, I can't stand to say goodbye
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking (big hearts are breaking) oooh
Big hearts, big hearts, big hearts are for breaking yeah (big hearts are for breaking)
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Note: I could not find lyrics to this song, so I spent a good 20 minutes trying to figure the lyrics out. If it doesn't make sense, apologies in advance for Andrew being unable to articulate. If you happen to have found the lyrics, do not tell me because I will be sad.
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The past 2 days have been amazing as I was able to share it with the best 3 people in my life. With time and a little alcohol, I can say I have become closer to each and every one of them. It's crazy to even say that being friends for so long, we are able to still learn something new about each other. It just makes it a little harder to say goodbye for now.
PS. The scarf has been christened (and is making its way to bring us closer).
PPS. I'm wearing the scarf as I write.
PPPS. Something has been added to the scarf already!
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It's just surprising how things work out. It's impossible to avoid the inevitable. But when your intuition kicks in and red flags pop, what do you do? Do you, A, continue and pretend it doesn't exist, and that you're crazy for thinking it? Or B, be a realist and question 'why'? What would you really do? In these types of situations, it's hard to even admit that there is a possibility that things might not work out. But your heart tells you to believe and that it's not over until it's over. But your head tells you to get out now, it's going to hurt. Do you follow your heart, or your head? Once the inevitable happens, you feel like a fool for believing, a fool to think that things can work out. Note to self: Listen to your fucking head because it hurts.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Dear Interceptor
Get out of the city if it hurts. You're too blind, move it over, try to get closer to the lifestyles of gluttons; seem so seamless and perfect. I've been the secret that you've been keeping.
Ears to the wall, eyes on the prize. See that you've made a mistake, and we all know what you've done here. Dear Interceptor, I've been waiting... Show me something. Hold the phone, we've found an answer. Full moons and minot keys to get there faster. Mirror, mirror, see this as clear as crystalline. Second-hand interpreter. The spoken word for change.
Wait for me, I wanted to feel this safe. I can't hear you scream. Hold the phone to make it better, I can't hear you.
Blood to the beat. This thirst of the Lion can't be quenched by cigarette strewn cubicle air. Dear diluted, while you're dreaming... Hold the phone, we've found an answer. Full moons and minot keys to get there faster. Mirror, mirror, see this as clear as crystalline. Second-hand interpreter, deep into the Red we need a change.
Just look at this cardboard cut-out, this puppet that you've become. Let me be the first to acknowledge you've no pride, you've no purpose. It's so typical to think less is more when you're out of the lead. Don't hurt yourself. Settle for less. It's so typical to think less is more when you're out of the lead. Second-hand interpreter, the spoken word for change.
Wait for me. I can't hear you. Hold the phone, we've found an answer.
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It's well past 3am and here I am. Without sleep and with too many thoughts to count. Even Armor For Sleep couldn't get me through this one. I haven't had one of these nights in quite a while.
I found myself thinking about the future a lot. I know that it's unpredictable and "only time will tell". But it sucks. I know its immature, stupid and "oh so girly" of me, but damn it, why is it so hard to find the four letter word.. love? With well over 6 million people in the entire world, you'd think that love would occur on a weekly basis. But after a lot of hard thinking and talking to the dead, I've come to the conclusion that love only comes to those who are ready for it. It comes to those who are willing to jump, those who are ready to fall, those who don't care, and those who are ready to accept all consequences. All four things must occur in order to find love. I've jumped... maybe 1.5 metres, but definitely wasn't ready to fall from that. And from stupid moves like that, hearts get a little cracked, not broken. But cracked enough to make someone scared and not be able to free fall. From seeing people I love get so hurt, by getting hurt ever so slightly each time myself, its hard to want the very thing I've been trying to find. So, I say I want love. But, am I willing to crash and burn? Not quite yet. "Take the pain out of love, then love won't exist", right? You've got to be brave, to be open, and to not be so scared. I admit, I'm jealous. Not jealous that everyone has a "boo" but me. But, more so that I'm not as brave as I want to be. I'm jealous that I cannot give my heart and a hammer, and let someone decide whether to pound it into tiny misshapen pieces and sell it for pocket change. I want to believe I will be strong enough, but it's hard trying to be a rock 24/7. Right now, admittedly, whoever gets close to me, I push away. Am I pushing away the very thing that's trying to find me? The future is unpredictable and only time will tell.
As a child, my parents always said that I wasn't allowed to date until I graduated from university (typical of the Asian parents, ask anyone). I always thought it was a joke. But now, here at the age of 20, entering my third year of university, aren't they happy? You bet. Intentional on my behalf? Not really, I blame the subconscious. I guess after little experiences, you start to see the entire picture. Or in my case, a little bit of overthinking and temperature variability does the trick too. Were they trying to protect my little heart? Probably. I think the message behind it all, was that they wanted me to become this strong, independent person before I decide to let someone into my life. A person who knows who she is, and isn't afraid of not fitting in. A person who knows what she wants, and won't let anyone else change her. I needed to be this person. Am I there yet? Not nearly. Good luck, Anita.
It's now almost 5am and round 392439248 of AFS. This will probably be the biggest blog you'll see. Sleep Attempt: #2
Ears to the wall, eyes on the prize. See that you've made a mistake, and we all know what you've done here. Dear Interceptor, I've been waiting... Show me something. Hold the phone, we've found an answer. Full moons and minot keys to get there faster. Mirror, mirror, see this as clear as crystalline. Second-hand interpreter. The spoken word for change.
Wait for me, I wanted to feel this safe. I can't hear you scream. Hold the phone to make it better, I can't hear you.
Blood to the beat. This thirst of the Lion can't be quenched by cigarette strewn cubicle air. Dear diluted, while you're dreaming... Hold the phone, we've found an answer. Full moons and minot keys to get there faster. Mirror, mirror, see this as clear as crystalline. Second-hand interpreter, deep into the Red we need a change.
Just look at this cardboard cut-out, this puppet that you've become. Let me be the first to acknowledge you've no pride, you've no purpose. It's so typical to think less is more when you're out of the lead. Don't hurt yourself. Settle for less. It's so typical to think less is more when you're out of the lead. Second-hand interpreter, the spoken word for change.
Wait for me. I can't hear you. Hold the phone, we've found an answer.
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It's well past 3am and here I am. Without sleep and with too many thoughts to count. Even Armor For Sleep couldn't get me through this one. I haven't had one of these nights in quite a while.
I found myself thinking about the future a lot. I know that it's unpredictable and "only time will tell". But it sucks. I know its immature, stupid and "oh so girly" of me, but damn it, why is it so hard to find the four letter word.. love? With well over 6 million people in the entire world, you'd think that love would occur on a weekly basis. But after a lot of hard thinking and talking to the dead, I've come to the conclusion that love only comes to those who are ready for it. It comes to those who are willing to jump, those who are ready to fall, those who don't care, and those who are ready to accept all consequences. All four things must occur in order to find love. I've jumped... maybe 1.5 metres, but definitely wasn't ready to fall from that. And from stupid moves like that, hearts get a little cracked, not broken. But cracked enough to make someone scared and not be able to free fall. From seeing people I love get so hurt, by getting hurt ever so slightly each time myself, its hard to want the very thing I've been trying to find. So, I say I want love. But, am I willing to crash and burn? Not quite yet. "Take the pain out of love, then love won't exist", right? You've got to be brave, to be open, and to not be so scared. I admit, I'm jealous. Not jealous that everyone has a "boo" but me. But, more so that I'm not as brave as I want to be. I'm jealous that I cannot give my heart and a hammer, and let someone decide whether to pound it into tiny misshapen pieces and sell it for pocket change. I want to believe I will be strong enough, but it's hard trying to be a rock 24/7. Right now, admittedly, whoever gets close to me, I push away. Am I pushing away the very thing that's trying to find me? The future is unpredictable and only time will tell.
As a child, my parents always said that I wasn't allowed to date until I graduated from university (typical of the Asian parents, ask anyone). I always thought it was a joke. But now, here at the age of 20, entering my third year of university, aren't they happy? You bet. Intentional on my behalf? Not really, I blame the subconscious. I guess after little experiences, you start to see the entire picture. Or in my case, a little bit of overthinking and temperature variability does the trick too. Were they trying to protect my little heart? Probably. I think the message behind it all, was that they wanted me to become this strong, independent person before I decide to let someone into my life. A person who knows who she is, and isn't afraid of not fitting in. A person who knows what she wants, and won't let anyone else change her. I needed to be this person. Am I there yet? Not nearly. Good luck, Anita.
It's now almost 5am and round 392439248 of AFS. This will probably be the biggest blog you'll see. Sleep Attempt: #2
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Awkward Last Words
I wanna live again
I wanna start everything over again
I wanna get this right
I'll meet you in another life
Over again
I'm coming back around again
Coming back over again
I'm coming back around again,
but now it's over
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
Out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
I'm gonna make this work
I'm gonna change everything wrong with me
I'm gonna prove you wrong
when I meet you in another life
Over again
I'm coming back around again
Coming back over again
I'm coming back around again,
but now it's over
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
Out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
I never had the gift of holding on to you
You're so far, so far away
No I, never had the gift of holding on to you, now
You're so far, so far awaya
I wanna live again [x3]
I wanna start everything over again
I wanna live again [x3]
I wanna start everything over again
We're out of time and I can't breathe [x4]
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
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This is my cheapo shot of a blog. Reason #1: I suck at writing, therefore will suck at blogging. Reason #2: At the moment, it says it all. Reason #3: William Beckett can get away with it. Maybe next time, I will put more effort into this. Maybe.
I wanna start everything over again
I wanna get this right
I'll meet you in another life
Over again
I'm coming back around again
Coming back over again
I'm coming back around again,
but now it's over
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
Out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
I'm gonna make this work
I'm gonna change everything wrong with me
I'm gonna prove you wrong
when I meet you in another life
Over again
I'm coming back around again
Coming back over again
I'm coming back around again,
but now it's over
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
Out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
I never had the gift of holding on to you
You're so far, so far away
No I, never had the gift of holding on to you, now
You're so far, so far awaya
I wanna live again [x3]
I wanna start everything over again
I wanna live again [x3]
I wanna start everything over again
We're out of time and I can't breathe [x4]
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
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This is my cheapo shot of a blog. Reason #1: I suck at writing, therefore will suck at blogging. Reason #2: At the moment, it says it all. Reason #3: William Beckett can get away with it. Maybe next time, I will put more effort into this. Maybe.
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