Checkmarks

So there you are, and here I stand,
As far as I remember you weren't half bad.
Your bedroom behavior was never more than checkmarks on bedposts.
For I remember we never had.

You get me out of the rain, you get me out of my clothes.
You hope I don't make a sound, you hope that nobody knows.
You get me out of the rain, you get me out of my clothes.
You hope I don't make a sound, you hope that no one...

So suck your so called pity down.
Hey, that's not so bad, is it?
So take your cold, cold heart and drown
and don't forget to take deep breaths.
So suck your so called pity down.
Hey, that's not so bad, is it?
So take your cold, cold heart and drown
and don't forget to take deep breaths.

So don't explain cause I know exactly what your going to say.
Big words, recycled phrases, and the bittersweet taste of other boys on your lips.
So now just sit here and talk about how you wanted it all.
So now just sit here and talk about how you wanted it all.

Do you miss looking up from the floor at my face on a stage in a crowded room?
Well it's not the same.
I bet you're still a sucker for those famous faces.
Downtown, looking down, down, looking over the crowd, I hope you're out there, look at me now.
Well it's not the same.
Just look at how we've changed.

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Ok, I had a minor realization/freak-out after work today. I'm so fucking behind school that this may be the year I fail. God forbid... but yeah. I fucking worked almost every day for the last week and half of this week. It's just so energy draining. Every fucking day I look forward to sleep. Oh man. When will be the next day I get to sleep without setting an alarm? It has been way too long. I just need more time. Yeah, EVERYONE wishes for more time, but I really mean it. Sad part is, this is probably as good as it gets for the next 2 months. So, how do I solve this? Not work as much and fucking study (and not sleep as much). I'm such a fucking idiot. Prioritize damn it, prioritize. I had this nice plan encircled by happy faces that I was going to succeed, but the light's dimming and all I can do is scramble to find another fucking lightbulb. And yes, I realize that I shouldn't be wasting this "time" I so urgently need by blogging, but I just have to get it out there. Oh man.