I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl
I sneak in and see your friends, and her snotty little family
All dressed in pastel
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid, somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry
This is surely not what you thought it would be
I lose myself in a daydream where I stand and say
Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now
Fun gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play a song that sounds like a death march
And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be
She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen
But I know you wish she was me, you wish she was me
Don’t you?
Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now
Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
Your time is running out and they said speak now
I hear the preacher say speak now or forever hold your peace
There’s the silence, there’s my last chance
I stand up with shaking hands, all eyes on me
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I’m only looking at you
I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl
So don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now
And you say lets run away now
I’ll meet when I’m out of my tux at the backdoor
Baby I didn’t say my vows, so glad you were around
When they said ‘Speak now’
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I'm always the one afraid of change. No matter how much I want to embrace it, it makes me feel very uneasy. I'm starting to work full-time at my job as a manager, and I can feel the responsibility! Every time I think of work, I get this weird feeling I used to get in school... like right before a presentation, or a client meeting, or getting my grades handed back to me. Nervous and anxious. But typically when it's over, I'm glad to have done it and that it's over with. I think I feel a little nervous because there are technical things that I still need to learn. And I think that I just need a little more practice. Either way, I'm glad I'm getting experience, and that there is change in my life! I know it's not what I want to do for the rest of my life, but it's good for now when I'm trying to figure things out. On a positive note, I get more stability. Anyone who knows me knows I love routine... and with working 40 hours a week, I can plan accordingly. And I'm kinda glad that I'll be working more because that means less time at home... which I would spend watching movies or streaming television shows, despite how much I love it! I'm such a homebody like no other. Occasionally, I feel the need for some sort of social interaction. But most of the time, I like being at home. Where I'm most comfortable, and there is no need to impress anyone! Hahah. But then I will never meet a guy! Now, that's serious...
Showing posts with label Taylor Swift. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Taylor Swift. Show all posts
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Untouchable
Untouchable like a distant diamond sky, Mmmm
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you
Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'll be here anyway
But you're untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're closer, feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh, In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
Oh, oh I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh
Untouchable burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh oh
Oh, Oh, In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
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I read this on Missed Connections. Just thought it summed up what I feel at times.
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"I wish I could stop thinking about you.. even now after everything that has happened; something inside me still wants to be in your arms, wants to gaze in your eyes, wants to have that special place in your heart. However, you never really thought I was of any value, never got to know who I was as a person. I know that despite being nothing like how you imagined your future life partner; I have a heart of gold, one you send back into the great depths of the metaphoric black hole. I do take responsibility though, as I allowed you to hurt me.
I don't really hold anymore hope of being with you, I am numb. I know that even if we were to reunite, I'm not sure I could trust you with the most precious thing I have give.. my heart. It is something I have struggled with for my entire life, although I know my worth and I know the potential for love I have to offer. I guard my heart with all my might... hoping that one day the right person will come along and simply exchange his heart for mine.
I was taking a chance with you that the person I desired most, the person I essentially waited almost 4 years for, might actually have or develop feelings for me. But I should have thought more with my brain and less with my heart. The things we do when we built up a fantasy of what could be...
I will not contact you again, as you made it clear you do not want that from me... obvious given your childish actions. My bruised ego, wants to believe you might have actually care for me in some capacity. As time passes and I reassess the situation, I feel like I was nothing but a failed pawn in your 'great chess game'. I wish I knew the wonderful person that you are, but sadly I am left with something far different than that reality. My great fantasy of you, has become a nightmare of masks and disrespect.
I do wish you all the best. I can't help but hope the best for those I hold love in my heart for. In time, I will move on as you have already.. but I will always remember what you taught me. I will always be thankful to you for showing me what my capacity for love is. Before you, I was not certain I could ever truly love someone. Even if that person was a figment of my imagination, I know now that I can feel the fire within."
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you
Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'll be here anyway
But you're untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're closer, feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh, In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
Oh, oh I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh
Untouchable burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh oh
Oh, Oh, In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
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I read this on Missed Connections. Just thought it summed up what I feel at times.
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"I wish I could stop thinking about you.. even now after everything that has happened; something inside me still wants to be in your arms, wants to gaze in your eyes, wants to have that special place in your heart. However, you never really thought I was of any value, never got to know who I was as a person. I know that despite being nothing like how you imagined your future life partner; I have a heart of gold, one you send back into the great depths of the metaphoric black hole. I do take responsibility though, as I allowed you to hurt me.
I don't really hold anymore hope of being with you, I am numb. I know that even if we were to reunite, I'm not sure I could trust you with the most precious thing I have give.. my heart. It is something I have struggled with for my entire life, although I know my worth and I know the potential for love I have to offer. I guard my heart with all my might... hoping that one day the right person will come along and simply exchange his heart for mine.
I was taking a chance with you that the person I desired most, the person I essentially waited almost 4 years for, might actually have or develop feelings for me. But I should have thought more with my brain and less with my heart. The things we do when we built up a fantasy of what could be...
I will not contact you again, as you made it clear you do not want that from me... obvious given your childish actions. My bruised ego, wants to believe you might have actually care for me in some capacity. As time passes and I reassess the situation, I feel like I was nothing but a failed pawn in your 'great chess game'. I wish I knew the wonderful person that you are, but sadly I am left with something far different than that reality. My great fantasy of you, has become a nightmare of masks and disrespect.
I do wish you all the best. I can't help but hope the best for those I hold love in my heart for. In time, I will move on as you have already.. but I will always remember what you taught me. I will always be thankful to you for showing me what my capacity for love is. Before you, I was not certain I could ever truly love someone. Even if that person was a figment of my imagination, I know now that I can feel the fire within."
Monday, February 16, 2009
Change
And it’s a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again and
You know it’s all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you’re getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do
And I’ll do anything to see it through
Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
And we’ll sing hallelujah, we’ll sing hallelujah
So we’ve been outnumbered
Raided and now cornered
It’s hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair
We’re getting stronger now
Find things they never found
They might be bigger
But we’re faster and never scared
You can walk away, say we don’t need this
But there’s something in your eyes
Says we can beat this
Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
And we’ll sing hallelujah, well sing hallelujah
Tonight we stand, get off our knees
Fight for what we’ve worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it’s the fight of our lives
But we’ll stand up champions tonight
It was the night things changed
Can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It’s a revolution, throw your hands up
Cause we never gave in
And we sang hallelujah, we sang hallelujah
Hallelujah
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Ah, my life has gotten slightly more complicated. Money issues are killing me again. A while back, Jenicka and I made plans to go to New Jersey for a concert festival aka Bamboozle. Since recent events, aka my surgery, plans are slowly fading. I'm trying to do as much as I can to stop it. "Pants, give me a miracle!"
On another note, I have become a person I did not want to become. A texter. Oh man. The urge to reply to text messages at 4:30 in the morning, the obligation to return messages via Facebook Mobile. Don't get me wrong, it makes me feel slightly more connected. But is it way too much? Damn it, unlimited texting!
PS. I hope you are enjoying the sweet sounds of Taylor Swift.
Somebody else gets what you wanted again and
You know it’s all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you’re getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do
And I’ll do anything to see it through
Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
And we’ll sing hallelujah, we’ll sing hallelujah
So we’ve been outnumbered
Raided and now cornered
It’s hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair
We’re getting stronger now
Find things they never found
They might be bigger
But we’re faster and never scared
You can walk away, say we don’t need this
But there’s something in your eyes
Says we can beat this
Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
And we’ll sing hallelujah, well sing hallelujah
Tonight we stand, get off our knees
Fight for what we’ve worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it’s the fight of our lives
But we’ll stand up champions tonight
It was the night things changed
Can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It’s a revolution, throw your hands up
Cause we never gave in
And we sang hallelujah, we sang hallelujah
Hallelujah
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Ah, my life has gotten slightly more complicated. Money issues are killing me again. A while back, Jenicka and I made plans to go to New Jersey for a concert festival aka Bamboozle. Since recent events, aka my surgery, plans are slowly fading. I'm trying to do as much as I can to stop it. "Pants, give me a miracle!"
On another note, I have become a person I did not want to become. A texter. Oh man. The urge to reply to text messages at 4:30 in the morning, the obligation to return messages via Facebook Mobile. Don't get me wrong, it makes me feel slightly more connected. But is it way too much? Damn it, unlimited texting!
PS. I hope you are enjoying the sweet sounds of Taylor Swift.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Hey Stephen
Hey Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving but I know I saw a light in you
As we walked we were talking and I didn't say half the things I wanted to
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
Ill be the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy you might have me believing I don't always have to be alone.
Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself
Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I've got some things to say to you
I seen it all so I thought but I never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving
I think you and I should stay the same
Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself
They're dimming the street lights
You're perfect for me why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now so come on and come out and pull me near
Shine, shine, shine
Hey Stephen I could give you fifty reasons why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well they're beautiful but would they write a song for you
Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I've got some things to say to you
I seen it all so I thought but I never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving
I think you and I should stay the same
Myself, can't help myself
I can't help myself.
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Breathe.
As we walked we were talking and I didn't say half the things I wanted to
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
Ill be the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy you might have me believing I don't always have to be alone.
Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself
Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I've got some things to say to you
I seen it all so I thought but I never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving
I think you and I should stay the same
Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself
They're dimming the street lights
You're perfect for me why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now so come on and come out and pull me near
Shine, shine, shine
Hey Stephen I could give you fifty reasons why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well they're beautiful but would they write a song for you
Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I've got some things to say to you
I seen it all so I thought but I never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving
I think you and I should stay the same
Myself, can't help myself
I can't help myself.
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Breathe.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
You Belong With Me
You're on the phone
With your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do
I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do
But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time
If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.
Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?
And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatchu doing
With a girl like that
She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time
If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.
[Instrumental]
Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me
Can't you see
That I'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.
Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?
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I think I'm having a Taylor Swift phase. I had one a while back when "Fearless" just came out. But for some reason, right now. Her entire CD is amazing and a much different sound than her debut one. My top runners are: "Fearless", "You Belong With Me", "Love Story" and "Breathe". They're all pretty awesome so take a listen when you can.
I was in the middle of studying yesterday and my sister comes and chills in my room. We ate chips and dip, and got talking a bit. She asked me what I wanted to do once I had finished school. I honestly didn't know what to say because I really don't know. I know I have to get a job, but it would be nice to travel a little bit, or just go to England for a couple weeks. I then asked her, and her reply was, "To get my life started". Hmm. That is actually what I want to do. Being in school, it restricts the way you want to live your life. With so many obligations and responsibilities, school is number one. That means, no partying unless its a Friday or Saturday, and if you don't have assignments to complete or tests to study for. You can't stay up late because you have an early class. You can't really travel places because the only place you can really go is two hours outside of Toronto. Priorities are strictly education related. What happens when that's gone? Once graduation comes? It's hard to say now that I'm living my life at all because I'm still in school, living at home, and have barely any money. One day, I really hope everything will pay off and I'll be able to get my life started too.
With your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do
I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do
But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time
If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.
Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?
And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatchu doing
With a girl like that
She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time
If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.
[Instrumental]
Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me
Can't you see
That I'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.
Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?
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I think I'm having a Taylor Swift phase. I had one a while back when "Fearless" just came out. But for some reason, right now. Her entire CD is amazing and a much different sound than her debut one. My top runners are: "Fearless", "You Belong With Me", "Love Story" and "Breathe". They're all pretty awesome so take a listen when you can.
I was in the middle of studying yesterday and my sister comes and chills in my room. We ate chips and dip, and got talking a bit. She asked me what I wanted to do once I had finished school. I honestly didn't know what to say because I really don't know. I know I have to get a job, but it would be nice to travel a little bit, or just go to England for a couple weeks. I then asked her, and her reply was, "To get my life started". Hmm. That is actually what I want to do. Being in school, it restricts the way you want to live your life. With so many obligations and responsibilities, school is number one. That means, no partying unless its a Friday or Saturday, and if you don't have assignments to complete or tests to study for. You can't stay up late because you have an early class. You can't really travel places because the only place you can really go is two hours outside of Toronto. Priorities are strictly education related. What happens when that's gone? Once graduation comes? It's hard to say now that I'm living my life at all because I'm still in school, living at home, and have barely any money. One day, I really hope everything will pay off and I'll be able to get my life started too.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
You're Not Sorry
All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh
Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before
But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohhh
You're not sorry no no ohhh
You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade
So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh
You're not sorry, no no ohhh
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FINALLY. I can breathe a little bit because I won't be working for the next week. Therefore, my scheduled oral surgery will have appropriate healing time. Let me tell you the tale...
Alright, you know that I've been trying desperately to get rid of my shifts on Saturday and Sunday of this week because I'm getting my teeth pulled out this Friday (the 13th... freaky eh?). Ok, for the past 2 weeks, I've been asking people I saw at work, calling people, doing anything I really can to get rid of my shifts. Like I had to right? Yeah. Anyways, yesterday was my last chance to get rid of them because it's the only time before Friday that I work. So, I went into work 1.5 hours early, got the phone contact sheet, and called everyone. Everyone. I was able to get rid of one and not the other. I went to get my Saturday shift exchanged approved and told my other manager Giulia about my situation, and asked her what would happen if I wasn't able to get it covered. "You're responsible for getting your shifts covered". Um, wtf? Like I'm letting you know that I'm going to be ''sick'' because of my surgery and I'm supposed to get it covered? I've called everyone in the fucking book and there are at least three on-calls that day. Seriously, what are they for if not that? Obviously, I did not freak out. I went on to explain that I will not be physically able to work that day. "You're gunna have to talk to Lisa [senior manager]." "Ok, so do you know when Lisa [senior manager] would be in tomorrow?" Then, onward with my shift. At the end, I forgot to confirm when Lisa was going to be in tomorrow, so after closing while walking out of the mall, I quickly asked my closing manager, Melisa. She said Lisa would only be in for a few hours doing district stuff, but will be on vacation for the rest of the week. Ok. Shit. But then she asked me what was wrong and I told her my dilema and she was like, "How many oncalls are there?" "At least three." "Ok, I'll take care of it, but you owe me." "THANNNNNNNKKKKKK YOOOOOUUUUUU." Seriously, she gets major points. And that's what oncalls are for. God. It still pisses me off because it's not like I'm sitting on my ass and doing nothing. I actually tried. Like fuck. I'm not trying to get away from working to go to the tropics or some shit. Like, I'm gunna not be able to talk/eat for a week. Fuckers.
After all that, all is well. I can relax and not having to worry because my part is done. Rather long story, isn't it? Onward to reading week.
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh
Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before
But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohhh
You're not sorry no no ohhh
You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade
So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh
You're not sorry, no no ohhh
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FINALLY. I can breathe a little bit because I won't be working for the next week. Therefore, my scheduled oral surgery will have appropriate healing time. Let me tell you the tale...
Alright, you know that I've been trying desperately to get rid of my shifts on Saturday and Sunday of this week because I'm getting my teeth pulled out this Friday (the 13th... freaky eh?). Ok, for the past 2 weeks, I've been asking people I saw at work, calling people, doing anything I really can to get rid of my shifts. Like I had to right? Yeah. Anyways, yesterday was my last chance to get rid of them because it's the only time before Friday that I work. So, I went into work 1.5 hours early, got the phone contact sheet, and called everyone. Everyone. I was able to get rid of one and not the other. I went to get my Saturday shift exchanged approved and told my other manager Giulia about my situation, and asked her what would happen if I wasn't able to get it covered. "You're responsible for getting your shifts covered". Um, wtf? Like I'm letting you know that I'm going to be ''sick'' because of my surgery and I'm supposed to get it covered? I've called everyone in the fucking book and there are at least three on-calls that day. Seriously, what are they for if not that? Obviously, I did not freak out. I went on to explain that I will not be physically able to work that day. "You're gunna have to talk to Lisa [senior manager]." "Ok, so do you know when Lisa [senior manager] would be in tomorrow?" Then, onward with my shift. At the end, I forgot to confirm when Lisa was going to be in tomorrow, so after closing while walking out of the mall, I quickly asked my closing manager, Melisa. She said Lisa would only be in for a few hours doing district stuff, but will be on vacation for the rest of the week. Ok. Shit. But then she asked me what was wrong and I told her my dilema and she was like, "How many oncalls are there?" "At least three." "Ok, I'll take care of it, but you owe me." "THANNNNNNNKKKKKK YOOOOOUUUUUU." Seriously, she gets major points. And that's what oncalls are for. God. It still pisses me off because it's not like I'm sitting on my ass and doing nothing. I actually tried. Like fuck. I'm not trying to get away from working to go to the tropics or some shit. Like, I'm gunna not be able to talk/eat for a week. Fuckers.
After all that, all is well. I can relax and not having to worry because my part is done. Rather long story, isn't it? Onward to reading week.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I Hate This Part
We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talked since we left, it's so overdue
It's cold outside but between us it's worse in here
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me?
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
That I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it, oh
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here
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"... absentmindedly making me want you."
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talked since we left, it's so overdue
It's cold outside but between us it's worse in here
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me?
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
That I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it, oh
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here
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"... absentmindedly making me want you."
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Fearless
There's something about the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There’s a glow off the pavement
You walk me to the car
And you know I want to ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah
We're drivin' down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absentmindedly makin' me want you
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
So baby drive slow
‘Til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger’s seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it
and I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I’d dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Well you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake
I'm not usually this way but
You pull me in and I’m a little more brave
It’s the first kiss,
It's flawless,
Really something,
It’s fearless.
Oh yeah
Cuz I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
oh, oh
---------------------------------
It's hard to say that I am afraid. Run and never look back. I'll let you know how it turns out.
The street looks when it's just rained
There’s a glow off the pavement
You walk me to the car
And you know I want to ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah
We're drivin' down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absentmindedly makin' me want you
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
So baby drive slow
‘Til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger’s seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it
and I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I’d dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Well you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake
I'm not usually this way but
You pull me in and I’m a little more brave
It’s the first kiss,
It's flawless,
Really something,
It’s fearless.
Oh yeah
Cuz I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless
oh, oh
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It's hard to say that I am afraid. Run and never look back. I'll let you know how it turns out.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Love Story
We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.
I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.
Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, please don't go-
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.
I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...
Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.
We were both young when I first saw you.
--------------------------------
One day.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.
I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.
Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, please don't go-
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.
I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...
Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.
We were both young when I first saw you.
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One day.
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